They are back :)

Girl 1's personalities are back. Seems a medication knocked them out. (?) Now that med is out of her system and they are back. Seemed tied together. LOL

Rachel is back - well not the same

Rachel had "Ran Away" to go live with Beast. (See other entries for details...)

Well around Christmas time she kept popping up her head saying stuff inside. Eventually we invited her back to the castle. She still isn't part of the front teeter-toddler like before, but she has freedom to speak up more inside now and has been restored to her queen position she had before in the castle.

She's trying hard to stay out of the way and not cause problems.

This has restored some of the emotional off balance our brain has always had. But we just couldn't keep it locked away. It wasn't working... It's kind of better but not "well"...

Maybe medication is needed...

Me brain

I get so tired of my brain being so broken... Lately I've had lots of extreme false thoughts. I've been crying and weeping over the idea of things that aren't even likely to happen. So many fears... So uncontrollable. And once that let up a bit now my brain has been really disjointed and disassociated. It's hard to be "me" because we are all scrambled.

Girl 2 and I seem to be patching things up but everything is still weird and way off of where I want them to be.

I've been really sick from the flu. I seemed to be over it but have started relapsing over the last couple of days. Don't want/like.

Arm seems to slowly be getting better after feeling broken for months.

Working on too many projects. Been focusing mainly on a new "game" I'm developing and divorce paperwork.