Moved [Rachel]

So we've moved to a rental house. We've been having lots of break downs away from work and almost not holding it together at work. Stress is horrible lately. Some highlights: Scott had a review at work a few days ago. It was commented that often he is perceived as negative. We just expect a lot from the company we work for and want to make things better and want to avoid mistakes we've seen and try to warn people of the traps they are getting into. But we are misunderstood. And we are negative. They don't pay us to be positive. They pay us to get work done. If they want us to be fake then they are asking us to be who we aren't. Our bi-polor has been really getting in the way since we started there. We are working on salvaging our future there but I'm not sure... Me. I've been out a few times lately when I didn't want to be. It was hard hearing girl 2 say that she loves us when I don't believe she loves me. I had to go away.... Not to be negative here but it is confusing to know how to live now that every thing went down... Mostly Scott and Akhenaten have adjusted to be twins and share move of the out time. Beast seems to pop out a lot lately. A lot of that is the stress and he's still angry so it's been hard to keep him from fucking everything up for A and S. The other day we went shopping and I started getting pulled out but we were with g2 and I didn't want to be out with her. We are tired of her taking over everything with this move and she was doing it with the shopping too. Finally as I was slammed out we had a huge panic attack and I went to the car and cried. Ahenaten got to cut on a couple people last week-end. That lifted his spirits a lot. Things are settling out now that the divorce is done. But brain is still rocky and having lots of trouble knowing K. is moving in soon. We are scared.