Leather Masks and Armor [Akhenaten]

Ok now I want to make Leather masks (oh so many ideas!!!) and body armor...

There are some really neat videos on youtube about making them.

Leather Craft [Akhenaten]

So while Scott does all the programming stuff I do BDSM stuff. Well lately I've been obsessing over creating my own leather toys, tools, and such. I've been working on some name tags for my girls so that others can have a bit of a clue as to who is out when we are playing.

Well now I've found this video that gives me TONS of ideas.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qfrrV2b9eFo&list=PL1834266C7F5D17D1 
I might need to start going to cons... LOL


One plus side to me not having a working computer at work is that I've been able to watch lots of leather crafting videos while I've been waiting. One guy is making guitar straps. Living in Nashville I've thought about making some different ones to sell. Maybe a store like Karma would sell them for me or something. So many directions to take that. But I have too many other projects to work on so I'm not going to go this direction right now. But could be a little money maker.

Along those lines I've thought about making bdsm toys locally. There aren't any craftspeople selling locally. Maybe sell to the shops? But again I don't have time.

Well today our work computer showed up after being re-imaged. So my time is gone now... So we'll shift back to Scott getting the day time again. He simply makes more than I ever could doing this.

More ok than not... :)

Now that the new work is leveling out and there is more routine my mind is doing a lot better. We love having down time, but looking for work really isn't down time... It was super stressful. We are doing a lot better now that we have a job.

Mostly happy. Standard frustrations of how to keep a relationship alive with girl #1 due to her being sick all the time. And frustrations around not having time to run a business and do projects and such.

I've been doing some leather crafting projects. I'm enjoying it. Looking to learn the biker patch style. of course most of the videos I can find are Western Sheridon style. But lots of knowledge to be gleamed from those. It's like learning Spirituals to learn the Blues. Close but not the same.

Last night Rachel and Scott were kind of co-sharing. Scott was surprised when he noticed our body kissing down girl #2's body. We are ok with what happened, but were a little surprised by the not knowing ahead.

Time to get a different vehicle... AC in my truck is still not working after re-charging it. There are mechanical problems. The other truck is broken down too. So both are limping along... So that is a stress.

How are we laid out?

Yesterday someone was asking me about how many personalities I have. We have that detailed in the "Da System" link at the top. That covers most of it. But it lead me to think about it a bit.

A while back we created a castle to have a grand meeting room to aid in conversations. I also see beast, eva, and puppies are in their own encampment outside of the castle. And Mr. Pier seems to have come from a debtors prisen where there is a massive group locked up. I got to thinking about the scenery around these. I used to think they were from very different time periods but the more I look at it the less time distinction I can see. odd...

Then of course there are those that are so far outside of this world like the indian boy and his village. There is Scotty that went and hid at our 5th birthday party.
there is Sarah that suddenly showed up one day and seems to live down the hall way kind of near Scotty in our brain, not the castle.

It's a big mix...


We just role with it. But when we stop to think about it then it's kind of weird. LOL

Fiddle [Sarah]

Fuck ya! Finally got my fiddle a couple weeks ago. It made be a cheap ass electric one but that is cool.

In a rare working together Scott helped me get some software on the phone for tuning. We'll see how close my memory was when I tuned it.


Being out sucks I'm outahere!

"Don't Leave the Buckets Out With The Blades In It"

Yesterday everything was fine. But the closer to home I got the more and more pressure there was in my head. I knew that sensation it is the "I'm going to shift to someone else" pressure. But we fought it and fought it because we had dinner to make and work to do. And a project to work on. And we were switching between the main three no problem so what the hell?! And we were cranky and grumpy and we were aware of it and couldn't stop it. We even commented on how our reactions were out of perporsion to the stimulus.

We went to bed. Had fun sex. Ending with Beast out. Still ok but our left arms was kind of numb and the pressure in our head wasn't stopping.

Then all hell broke loose. We started seeing scenes of a mental ward public area. We kept refocusing on a table with a bucket with blades in it. And this phrase kept playing over and over, "don't leave the buckets out with the blades in it." over and over and over. [Large sour cream container with stake knives standing vertically in it in a circle but not falling to the side of the container for support...] We almost said it out loud but were afraid of what would happen and worked on pushing it away. Failed... We suddenly switched over to someone new - well that isn't quite right. I'll get to that. He took quick notice of girl 2 being in bed with him and started playing with her. Odd thing. When he moved towards her head the brighter and "higher feeling" things got and he came out stronger. As he moved down her body things darker and it was harder to hold the front position. A bunch of us were pulling on him to pull him back in. Suddenly we switched to Scotty and there was a huge pain in the back of our right eye. To him it felt like the bad man had stabbed him in the eye from the back as he went in. He'd used a knife from the bucket to get free... He was put back in his cage or room.... Scotty mentioned how he'd forgotten about this nightmare. None of us can remember anything about this. So is this someone new? Someone old we'd walled up in the past? Either way he definitely scared even Mike.  From there we spun around to a bunch of different people and shook a lot. And internally cried ourselves to sleep...

Morning. Depressed. Just don't care it's time for work. Forced us up...  Here we sit...

While driving in to work I popped into the meeting room in the castle and there were hundreds of new faces... There is is some battles going on trying to get them back to the cages where they live. We are scared about what that means. That is the debtors prison area. And now that I have this new job maybe it is safe to left them be free... But... We have a fine balance and don't want it upset. Old work did that for us already though....


Because I needed a breakdown right now....   ughhh

My eye is still a bit sore... I wonder if physically a blood vessel popped while we were switching. Looking in the mirror I don't see anything wrong though. Aches like it used to when I was six and seven, before I got glasses.

Rachel's Pulled Chicken BBQ [Rachel]

Pre-Prep
Thaw Chicken Breast.

Once thawed pre-heat oven to 250.

Sauce Creation
In a bowl wisp together:
1/4 cup catchup
1/8 cup apple cider vinegar
1 cup apple juice
1/8 cup terriakie sauce
1/8 cup olive oil
2 tea spoons sun dried tomato paste
1 table spoon dijon mustard
1 tea spoon lemon juice
light dash of paprika
light dash of cummen
some onion flakes
salt

Dry Rub / Searing
Sprinkle the chicken with salt, onion powder, basil. Sear the breast in a hot skillet.

Baking
In a glass pie pan spray with non-stick spray. Dip chicken in the sauce to coat evenly then put it in the baking dish. Pour sauce over chicken. Cover with foil and poke a small hole in the middle.

Bake in 250 oven for one hour on rack that is about 1/3 from the bottom of the oven.
Then turn up the heat to 300 and bake for another hour.

Serving
Pull with fork like pork and serve.

More Adjustments and random stuff

The rule of multplicity that I live by is that everything is always changing, especially personalities and what/which one the brain will pick at any given time. I can't count on other people or me to react, respond, be, or do what I expect. And that really drives my analytical side bug nuts! I want to be able to know. It is hard for me to sit with the unknowing. It's hard for me to be in the here and now and be present to what other people need or what I need. I want to already know. But life doesn't work that way...

While I was unemployed my brain started reorganizing as we dealt with surging emotions. We dealt with our poly dynamic as well. For many reasons Akhenaten, Scott, and Rachel each took time off. This left our brain scrambling to cope, deal, front, etc.

Well we are finally all back and getting things organized again now that we are working again. When we weren't we started migrating to a natural state of being. The "normal" we do for work is a creation to survive the social norms and requirements of society. Our base normal self is a night creature that finds tangents and runs with them. We do all kinds of random projects. Well that has left us with a long list of TODOs to get done now that we are working again. We are sorting through their priorty and have even made a list. Some we'll do because ya we want to do them for real. Some are more job type things that we'd like to do if we weren't out working for someone else.

Over this forced break we learned a lot about working with leather. Starting to really enjoy the possibilities there and have a long list of ideas in our head for projects to do.

There are five or six whips I plan to braid out and some other toys to build.

There are multiple apps I've invented I want to have someone write and if it has to be me then they will take a while.

etc. etc. etc...

So all that takes money. :( So a lot of that probibly won't happen or won't happen as soon as I want for sure.



Sarah is getting stronger. We are scared about that. She's a cunt and doesn't like some people we do. We keep her in the background and she mostly doesn't want to come out anyways. But slowly she is coming out more and more. Weird feelings flow with her. Weirder to our system than other personalities. Her views are so different. Most of our system share the same outlook and views but express them differently. She doesn't really fit that model. In some ways she says what we are scared to tell ourselves at times. A bit of a protector spirit that way. But mostly she's just being a cunt.



Work. We sit here waiting for access to our computer... boring! Can't really do what we want because ya we are at work. So lots of web surfing...


3D printing. I've been obsessed with possibilities there for a few weeks now. Today on CNN they have a report on 3d printing where they say it is moving from several millions to 1.x Billion in the next few years. I am tempted to go that line, but it requires a lot of trig that my brain can't really handle. But there are many aspects of it I could do. It will probibly be a hobby and I'd like to build a printer from scratch for myself. It fills that robot interest as well as the 3d printing side of things. I'd love to make one that has three or four colors that blend together to make color on demand or some other inking system. I'd really love to build a metal printer too. Those are cool.

I have some business ideas around 3d printing that lets customers modify some parameters to get custom fit products. Maybe I'll work on writing those apps. I have a better business idea around online games to do first though. But i'd love to be able to make a line of customizable leather punches. Not a big money maker, but sounds like a fun project. Maybe I could sell it to Tandy or something. LOL

Yet I find it all so fascinating... So maybe I will go that direction. Just depends on how my ADD goes... LOL


Rachel is slowly coming back. With the deal with MK she turned off. It wasn't that we tried to do that to her or that she let anyone know. Just we realized we couldn't reach her. That was almost weirder than when Scott turned off for a break and we were jumping from Akhenaten straight to Rachel. But she's slowly coming back. She's starting to regain her stregnth. At first she couldn't hold the front very well. Getting better at it again. She's majorly depressed. Typical teenager reactions to non-recipicated love. We'll get beyond it.

Speaking of this issue most of the rest of us are mostly doing ok with this. We still have some weird feelings about it but aren't on the train of thought to make things end like we were before we figured out what was bothering us and why it was. Now that we've narrowed it down to a specific thing it's been easier for some of us to manage. We still need more communication to get this working better...



Speaking of communication it's not been happening at home much because we have all been depressed and dealing with our issues. Me being depressed shot both of my girls into a depression. I'm mostly back out and now trying to pick up the pieces. Sucks because I needed their support which pushed me further down ... anyways fast forward - we are starting to pull it back together. Seems like no matter how hard I try I always end up with people that are depressed and we play the depression dance. BUT this is the best mix yet!!! ;)


I'm slowly starting to teach more BDSM classes. I have a blade class I co-teach. I'm part of the steering committee for a BDSM basics class and probably will eventually teach one of those classes. I do a lot of mentoring. I have become a very active member in my community. But mostly I support girl #2 with her teaching because she's kick ass at it! I am working on a new class that I'll teach. It's working title is BDSM in Action. Working on the TOC, speech, slides, and pictures. I've got a few weeks to finish it...



Helicopter. Ya the ADD is still driving me nuts but it's settling down a bit now that their is a routine emerging with the new job. (but there was just one flying around with red cross paintings on it. I suddenly had thought of Vietnam...)

Valuable?

New job is going well. Initial learning curve but because it is the same business domain I'm jumping in full swing and just having to learn their product/implementation. I have a stack of stuff to read after lunch...

It worries me how free and valuable I feel now that I have a job again. That should come from inside instead of someone showing me to be valuable. Most of it is the dynamic of how culture has us set up to be valuable only if we are providing money a particular way - a job. But there is so many things I want to do that can make money. If only I had enough time and funds to float me until I could get them to pay off... But I don't.  Soo... I has a job again. LOL

And I'm mostly happy right now. Some major things broke free between MK and me. It is still a bit raw and awkward but I'm trying and so is he. I just wish we didn't have to try so much.

Busy busy lately.