Down Under

Funny thing happened yesterday. We had a really great night of set the night before and was feeling good about it all day. As Rachel came out to cook dinner she suddenly felt like our privates all doubled in size. Like everything. And it hit all at once and felt really really good.

That reminds me. The other day Beast came out really strong during sex and suddenly everything he looked at was magnified double. That caused a greater tunnel vision to allow for the closer refocus. I remember standing on the side line watching this and thought about our years of eye therapy we went through to get our tunnel vision and focal lengths to work right. I wonder if back then we were fighting for control of the eyes. I know we had a lot of anger, frustration, and control issues around that time.

Re-focus about Angels

How does one go about getting Angel investors? This is something I've looked at in the past. I've always been vehemently against going that route because I didn't want to extend that control I wanted to another. But even if I had full control of the company then the customers are still the boss. SOOOOO   I'm re-thinking this position a bit. I'm looking for what is next for me and starting an adult gaming company is looking very promising as an opportunity and interest of mine. I'm starting to work on business plan ideas. And as a business plan is suppose to do it is forcing me to re-think some of the approaches I'm using currently vs what I should be using for success. It also it clear to me that I need funds if I take this approach full time and hire developers, etc. It is time to get the business plan down on paper and slide shows and get the napkin diagram down in my head and get the 30 second elevator speech created.

Noticed slip-ups as stress reduces

Back in the grind of work and life after all that vacation time. Christmas tree is put away. Holiday stress is mostly gone.

Job search hasn't gone anywhere yet. Yet...

New application development is on hold while I get some old defects in my existing stuff fixed. I despise having broken code released. LOL


== slip-ups ==
Beast has been coming out more and more frequently for sex. That is ok most of the time but I don't like how often and how much he's taking over when someone else is having fun.

Rachel hasn't been out strongly for a while, but I catch her patterns being out here and there unexpecitly like today after warming up my lunch in the microwave.

Mr. Peare's voice was talking to a co-worker about her short sleeved sweater today. I'm talking to myself asking me why he's talking to her and out at work while I'm thinking I'm talking to her.

But more or less life is how it's been. Somewhat working - and really more working than not. I mostly don't have complains about things related to my system as we interface to the world. But there are little things. Luckily I'm 99.9% functional in life.




I notice that after Beast slips away that Mr. Peare is almost always there.

There are some personalities that come out rarely that we don't know or recognize and they feel funny when they are out. They use our memory space but they aren't us. Everything feels foreign. That seems to only happen when we are really out of it from playing too hard or if we crash out. I find I have to stay balanced our make sure I have time to re-coup if I exert really heavy.

I'm starting to hold my dungeon play to one or two scenes lately because of multiple reasons.
1. I'm going more often so I'm not as needy.
2. I'm enjoying socializing
3. I'm finding that I'm flying a lot lately - I really enjoy playing. It puts me in a good and happy place. But while there I notice my aim and such is off. Like I'm drunk. So I've been pulling back from play when that happens.
4. If I over do it I get really spinny. And while that can be fun once in a while it puts us out of control and we HATE that.


I haven't had a decent scene with girl #2's emo alter for a long time. There's been reasons. I'd like to fix that though. Me and someone talked about it but we still haven't found the right time to do it.

Scream

I am inside and wishing out!!! Hating work!

Spins

I keep getting really spinny lately. (Personalities jumping out unexpectidly or running through lots of them quickly.) Some of the agitation is due to pain of the bad teeth I have. Some is due to feeling trapped in this job. Some is? I'm not sure. It's always been there at a level. It's just pushed up more right now...

I've had some good job interviews lately... Hoping one of them pans out.
Been applying to others just in case.

I'm taking a small break from starting new programming projects for my business right now. Been fixing some defects to make things better. When they came out with android release 11 or something like that... they made it so one of my programs won't work with the newer stuff. That is next on the list to fix.

Well off for now... this was more of a check in.

I'm just sick and tired of being sick from this tooth...