much has happened

So many things have happened since I last wrote... Lots of emotional pain. The anti-anxiety meds are helping a lot. But we get so many feelings it can't help with. So I'm writing today because yesterday they announced this project is cancelled. Looking like I'll have three weeks of employment and then two weeks of severance. Today I've applied for two positions. One remote based and one in Cincinnati. Looking at others too. That is with my same company. I'm planning to look at other companies locally soon too. My kids are upset because their grandma is dieing. (bone cancer.) I feel so helpless to help them. Even if they were close to me I couldn't help them with this other than provide hugs. Wish I could...